A confession part 1
I suggest you grab your self some biscuit, drinks and also a smoke or two if you are going to be reading this till the end.
Also, Ressurection Fern by Iron & Wine and Deeper Conversation by Yuna would be nice if you have on your laptop right now.
- Russell Raines
I have been thinking about my story. My life. I have made up no conclusions or findings in my journey. I have not understand anything and will not pretend to in this post. I have hitting some hard times right now in my life. Someone that I have been with on and off for the last 3 years has decided to go behind my back to marry a gwailoh. No offence to my ‘mat salleh’ friends but that was a blow I can’t take. At the same time I decided to move on I met up with some old high school history and I realized that I never should have made my mistake so many years ago. Our story can no longer move forward due to the difference of religion. To be honest maybe it was all for the best because I don’t wanna end things with my girlfriend of three years.
Cassie and Me
Some women I have met was only there for the fun times but I don’t blame them, I should have the same mindset since we are all at the same age. The person I would be blaming is myself for letting them in. I still have feelings for Cassie but I have decided not to see her. I just can’t take the heartache.
Call me a jerk but since last year I was keeping in contact with a girl that I was interested in. I found her to be smart, interesting and fulfills all my needs. A year later, I find out that she is not really the same person that I came to know for the pass year. We had our moments. I appreciated her but I just wished that she would make better choices in life. I know, I always make the bad choices too.
I know that I have friends and few that I consider family. I have come to know some stellar characters and some shitty ones. I have friends who has always been in my best interest and help me. I never found a way to show them how much they are a very big part of my life and I love them so much.
Charlene The Osom and Me
As I make this journey thru life, I have come to meet all of you and you have all let me into your heart without expecting much. I apologise for the times that I have that I have been rude or doubted you. You all know that most of the time I need to be reminded which way is up. I have to say to the few who knows that I’m referring to them, you have always been there, I wish I can be there for you guys.
Calista, Julian, Me and Jovanny
Raimi, Shannon, Me, Jayeson and Emmanuel
Me and Amy
Those who has supported me by giving me opportunities in life. I have to thank you for having faith in me even when I doubt myself.
To my friends who are only there for a short period I hope that I have left a good mark in your life no matter what happened between us.
To those who I consider family, I sorry for being such a lousy friend. There are things I wish I can do to change myself but it seems that the body is not willing.
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